Friday, September 18, 2009

Living and Surviving

 It is one of my bad days--the nerve pain in my arms is overwhelming and yet, I am trying to live a so called normal life. 

These lyrics from "Set Me Free" by Casting Crowns speaks to me this morning and says better than I ever could the struggle to live in spite of this damnable disease.

It hasn't always been this way
I remember brighter days
Before the dark ones came
Stole my mind
Wrapped my soul in chains

Now I live among the dead
Fighting voices in my head
Hoping someone hears me crying in the night
And carries me away

Set me free of the chains holding me
Is anybody out there hearing me?
Set me free

Morning breaks another day
Finds me crying in the rain
All alone with my demons I am
Who is this man that comes my way?
The dark ones shriek
They scream His name
Is this the One they say will set the captives free?
Jesus, rescue me

As the God man passes by
He looks straight through my eyes
And darkness cannot hide

Do you want to be free?
Lift your chains
I hold the key
All power on Heav'n and Earth belong to me

You are free
You are free
You are free

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Janine I think of you so often and lift you up in prayer. It saddens me to know how much you suffer. At the same time pleases me to know that your faith and hope is strong. I love you Aunt Terri.